I am awake and aware, and that doesn’t always make me happy. Some days I think for a brief time that I would like to go back to being unaware and not vulnerable. However, I know that in the long run I do prefer to be vulnerable and aware of what is really going on. I hate being hurt, and I will survive because it is what I do. I can’t go back to the ‘not-knowing’ state that I was once in. Sometimes I hate vulnerability, but since being open does bring more rewards, I will continue to be vulnerable and open to being hurt. Please be gentle with me, and I will try to remember that the cracks are where the light gets in.