You’re right, I don’t know how you feel. What happened to you has never happened to me. I see you are devastated. Let me be there for you in whatever way will help you. I can hold your hand, clean your house, watch your kids, listen to you process the events, sit in the next room so you know you are not alone, or help in whatever else will help you. If you don’t know what will help, try something. It’s okay to change you mind.